sigh w/e brahs

So it was August that I last posted? Well, I've made pretty much nothing since then. Have hardly grinded as usual despite constantly telling myself to. There must be something mentally wrong with me, but distractions in my life really don't help my already piss poor motivational side. However when I have played it's been the usual rig.

Somewhere between then and now I got 3rd in the Hot $11 for $3k, up to was $5.7 or so which I desperately needed, and as I'm sure you will all have guessed, yet again I was CL 3 handed and lost umpteen flips I was ahead in to get the severely disappointing 3rd. Getting 1st was critical in that rare, RARRRRE MTT I actually managed to FT but it wasn't to be.

And since then it's been the same old shit. I've mainly played $3-$7 18-45mans and $2-8 180's. I'm on a GIGANTIC losing run in 180's so I've now quit them. My long term ROI in them has been pretty much destroyed and yeh it might only be 2k games which can arguably be played in a month but so what, variance should also change over time as well as volume but it makes no difference. I could quit Stars for a millennium and the day I logged back in I'd be 95% chance to run like pure shit as ever.

Running like shit is ever more confirmed on a daily basis by watching various players tiltbook statuses and winning months prove to me that the ROI's are still just as attainable as ever. Alas my account is stifled. I am losing 70% days for 2015 just as I have lost 70% all of December. Again I've slacked on the hours played side but every man and hius dog would totally understand why that is now after so soooooooooooooooooo many years of pure runslunt.

So anyways as I said, average stakes have dropped to something like $4.50 or so. I can take a few positives from certain games that show I can indeed still win and it is just variance that is permanently killing me. For example since I made the conscious decision to downstakes full time (barring the odd $15 here and there) I've done ok in $3-$7 18-45's.

68 cents per game there and 61 cents of that is the $3's alone, so none too great in the 7's but this can be seen in the EV. The $3' are just as reg infested as virtually any other game now anyway especially in the 9m hypers, christ I would rather play a $300 or even a $3k hyper STT than anything $3-$30 to be honest.

So, as I have at least something to take away from results then once again the answer is to knuckle down and work my ass off. But as we all know every time I do this and set out with that mind set, I am soon crushed to oblivion by the RNG as if to say "no laddie we won't allow this". So this means I have to overcome that, hide the stars cashier balance, ignore HEM...which incidentally brings up another matter.

I thought it might be an idea to play HUD-less, a superstitious idea that perhaps Stars rig-ware detects HUD users and stifles them a little. I don't think I've found too much difference in runnings so I may aswell bring the HUD back. Although I sometimes think it gets you into trouble more often than it generates extra ROI, when u rejam on a 40% opener from MP and he has top 10% every time instead of what the HUD stats imply he has, without the HUD that would've been a default fold if you didn't remember the player's name/style. But then again I was playing HUD-less yesterday and got down to the last 6 tables or so having been screwed left right and centre so thought f it may aswell fire it up, and a player to my right who'd kept raising from the button in quite a tight inflection point of a 45man, showed he was raising like 90% of a significant sample which allowed me to rejam 89s from the SB with 10bbs and get the fold. So it's swings and roundabouts with HUDs, hard to know whether to keep using or not.

So if you're wondering how I'm actually still living and paying rent etc, well I'm not really. Owe my friend who I live with around $5k in rent and am currently staying at the gf's so the last 3 months is debatable whether he will charge me the full amount or not. He's pretty lax with money though so with any luck he'll just say call it X amount and leave it there. I still have around $13-14,000 worth of car and motorbike to sell so all isn't lost just yet.

Happy New Year!

I'm going to remain calm...but

So, we're more than half way through 2015 (life is disappearing real darn fast!!) and has anything changed? Well, yes in a sense. It's changed in the sense that amazingly things have actually gotten worse...and worse...and worse....and worse.

As if having an on off relationship (generally two days on 40 days off) with a complete schizo for a gf wasn't bad enough, it's clearly had a huge effect on my earnings. Barely played all of 2014 but looking back that was still only 2k games short of what I played in 2013, and in '13 I made $30k, but in '14 I barely made $5k!! This was also due to a huge step down in ABI, due to me basically spending most of my roll in '14.

I've already played at this stage the same amount of games I played in all of 2014 (which is still pathetic) but the last couple months I've put more time in. And now I'm getting truly desperate, my abi is at $10 decreasing rapidly to $8, and yet I am on a 200 bi downswing even at this level!!! What is happening at the tables is just beyond everything I've ever known. Man I used to whine in 2009, what I'd give to have that RNG back, jesus christ!!!!!!!!!!!

What is happening is truly amazing and I will always carry to the end of my days the firm belief that online RNG's are about as random as the fucking sunrise!! Extremely patternised with boards constantly matching up with the cards of the players going to showdown. The amount of broadway flops, Ace high flops, impossible turns and rivers once the money goes in on the flop.... Well, you've heard it all here before, only it's a thousand fold worse!! Amaya, the new stars owners, have definitely tweaked all rigged accounts even tighter now, introduced more housebots for sure, as well as their rake rises to make their money back quick time. I truly believe there are housebots, the amount of times some prick has called me all the way down with absolutely no pair no draw 3 high to miracle a river gutshot from space is unbelievable, there's definitely tons more of that kinda thing going on than there ever was in previous years, simply no question.

Try it yourself, just deal out some REAL cards. Every time I get AK, the flop will be broadway but no pair, so gutshots basically, which you never know wtf to do vs blinds donking you, or being check raised etc. Q9x is a massively commonly occuring flop when I have AKo. Every 88 I get in vs A2o, Ace in the window just an obscene number of times in a row. Deal out your real cards, just never happens, but on riggerstars it's 90% of the time. I tell you now, I could go on to be another jorj95 making hundreds of thousands a year it wouldn't matter, I would still maintain from the rooftops RNG's are geared to action, and defo geared very much against those of us with the highest PFR stats. I'm starting to think that could be it actually. It detects those who steal more than others and thus adjusts accordingly.

200 abi's at $9-$10 is something unheard of for me. Understandable at higher stakes but come the fuck on! BTW these are mostly 18/180's. More so 180's, I've had 8 significant cashes in 1000 non-rebuy 180's, completely destroying my long term ROI in them which was basically the highest in the world pre 2015. No huge sample but just steady consistency across the years, and to EV aswell.

I've been adding lots more MTT's lately however, reg speeds in a bid to bink a score and have less variance (hasn't worked), sattying into hots and bigs galore, to no avail thus far. I actually do quite well in satties funnily enough. Got straight into a Big 162 first time of asking and cashed it no problem, captained the table for hours then of course got coolered to shit, or rivered as ever. I've played 20 hours in the past two days which for me is a miracle and it has to continue now. At a time of desperation rather than when I SHOULD have done so wayy back in 2009 when similar efforts would have made $100k+!! Now I'm having to do it at the fucking $3 level!!!!! What a joke.

So my roll is destroyed and I'm at the point where I'm going to have to find a stake. Probably won't get a decent deal cuz every backer will just think I'm shit as opposed to unlucky and even if they think I'm unlucky that still doesn't instill confidence cuz who wants an unlucky horse? Better to be lucky than good, right?? To think players like abarone I was beating at $16/9's back in the day, now he's making $30k a fucking month luckboxing the hell out of everything he plays versus 90% regs!!! (lol) obviously good karma surrounds that boy, could use some myself. He's obviously good and works his tits off playing 200hrs in a month and so on, so hard work deserves good results. But whenever I consciously decide to put the work in I get royally cunted, only time I win is when playing casually which is pretty much what it was in 12-13 around ABI 30. I would win and quit for days but the buy in made it so I was earning enough on 16-20 hour weeks. Maybe the laziness karma is making me suffer until I've gotten to a certain point of hard work effort then things might change. Problem is by then, I'll have run out of $$$!!!!! FML