Wednesday, May 6, 2020

This is my own matrix, you don't exist

The thread title is the only possible, possible explanation there can be to my life, especially poker. If that's the case then you don't exist. So I'm writing to no one. Everyone I interact with, anywhere, I am sub-conscious control of their responses and actions towards me.

But I'm still posting anyway in case there's a 2% chance this is a real world.

I cannot emphasise any more words in this blog that haven't been repeated a thousand times. Except to say that the runnings are getting so so so beyond the imaginary that I'm petrified for my life. For there to be thousands upon thousands of set ups, day in day out, so that literally no entity on earth could make a single dime from this card distribution (don't care if your Stu Ungar's love child), can mean only one thing, my makers are doing all of it. Scary to think you're really not alone....and also wonder, just what's the fucking point in it?


Still one hundred % minimum -$1250 every single weekend on WPN, if not then 95% without a shadow about that. While fucking horrendous players continue to make soaring amounts, it's totally incomprehensible.

Then you watch Fedor and Epiphany play one game in months, and take it down every time. Like if either of them play they've got to be 50% favourite out of any number of players in the field. Fedor reached the FT of a 10k the other night and binked no fewer than 4 full houses in a row in critical scenarios. Something me and a few players on skype, of infinity times more games than him, all shared that never happened in our 30+ million combined hands history...yet he does this game in game out, with a total amount of 10k games ever played in his life. This isn't to be bitter about another person's success or anything like that, it's purely proof that I'm in a matrix. I don't even ask to receive luck, just to stop receiving horrendous trillions to one math against me every day of my miserable cunt life.

That'll never happen...becuz you don't exist, this is my matrix...and I'm dying to know why I have to suffer like this.

Around 13,000 Stars SnG's, 3 years. yes that's predominantly t1500 starting stacks.


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